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Assalamualaikum and hello there well it's been awhile though and yeah, it is December.Well for me it's just a month let Allah decide weather it's gonna be nice or not.I was hoping less crying and just being happy.Last month was so hard for me it starts September until November yeah it's been rough lately 3 months i suffer alot.Ya Allah, please make this month the most happiest month on my life, amin. Lately, umi is having these terrible headache i asked her is it her blood pressure or something.Well before this she went to Ipoh because her Aunt is in the hospital so she checked he blood pressure that day and her niece is a nurse and she said why didn't she go to the clinic she just knew it.She told me about it and suddenly she said, it's maybe symptom of Cancer and i was shaking and i feel that my body just flew away.I don't want to loose her so badly! She sacrificed alot for me it's my turn to return the favor i would die for her i don't deserv...

                              Assalamualaikum and hello there! today was fun yeah i watched Breaking Dawn for the third time haha , that picture was taken at mph midvalley.I was bored and i took em' and i suddenly gazed about him it was weird i gazed alot about how pathetic i am liking him.Now i'm just afraid by afraid i mean afraid to fall in love.Yeah i know my tweets are just so positive, optimistic but that's not the real me.Maybe outside i can be like that but the inside? only Allah knows how i felt after that incident. Okay guys let me tell you about the incident.Here it goes , i was early because Aliff needed my help to buy a gift for Hanis so i came early and i saw Hana and her gang lol and i greeted them and suddenly Hana told me everything i was shocked well i wasn't i felt mad/sad/happy i don't know how to describe that.It hurts so badly i just fell and Hana told me "Syafiqah, janganla nangis" i'm ...

                                                                    Click It It's A Gif Assalamualaikum and hi there well it's been a long time i did not post anything in this blog well apparently nothing happen recently but today was the best day ever! Well did you guys know that Malaysia vs Indonesia just like 2 hours ago yeah Malaysia won i'm so proud of it well i don't hate Indonesia were all in one earth then why hating? Theres no point hating them so i don't hate them for me these two teams are awesome n_nV Well recently after i saw the match i'm in love with this guys and his name is Nazmi Faiz Mansor haha be jelly lol no.Well it's just a fan love not a true love well he sacrifice for our country he's seventeen as all of you guys know that he's facing SPM but he sacrifice to make our country proud i'm proud of ...

Assalamualaikum and hello there as you see that picture um yeah i was bored so i played it.Today at Twiiter/Facebook at posts about love even Blogger i was like what? Is it "Love day?" speaking of it i did posts some of it it's just some memories but some of them it's like hurting me i kept hoping for what? i know but i fell in love i have to move on the fact is he was never mine and will never!  I do know that but i just i don't know it's hard i do love him and it's time i have to set him free and accept him as my friend like i did with Zul he also knew that i loved him but he said sorry and said "Can we still be friends" yeah of course Zul :') but it was along time ago.Yeah my love story sucks, aha if i have one o_o.Back to the topic mwehehe :'3 well since then i don't have an appetite to eat and further more, i've been having alot of stomach ache lately is it gastric?  I don't know i'm better off dying who cares anyw...

Assalamualaikum and hello there i watched this and i cried look at him he has nobody accept his brother and he can live what about me i have a great family but i feel alone.I know that Allah will always test us by taking our love ones away well, i will be thankful and always.Somehow after watching this i know that life isn't that hard you just have to think positive and optimistic and i think i'm better now i think...

Well hello there and assalamualaikum i will make a short post well no really :-P as you olls see in that picture i look happy but apparently i'm not that kinda happy.Today was the last day i'm gonna be form 1 at Smk Jalan Bukit well i grew and grew at times it's tough but i managed to handle it but what about next year can i manage to handle it? Well let's wait and see what's gonna happen. Today when i came to school Hanis and Syidah asked "Weh jom lepak padang boringla kat sini" so i followed them at the Dataran Ilmu was crowded of form 2's parents because they wanna take duit RM100 tu.So i sat at the tree Lol actually theres some of those trees was cutted down so half la.I sat there and wander alot sighing, humming and i listens to Adele and Christina Aguilera and suddenly form 5 came out from they're block so i was oh dah habis periksa kot so i let em' be. So i took some pictures Syidah and Hanis and some trees muehehe :-P.And then we wer...

Um hi and assalamualaikum, sigh things never got better it got worst.I have nothing ta say maybe Allah is testing me maybe..well here it goes Hanis is leaving me by leaving i mean leaving Malaysia she will be studying at Melbourne soon! i'm just so sad i feel like she's the only one who can understands me and know who am i and always support me.But why she must go.. and she is facing the largest problem ever Aliff his boyfriend is leaving him he's going to be studying at Indonesia if they go i'll be all alone in Malaysia.I think i being like my sister all of her friends is moving away at this age but why ? don't i deserves friends? i just can't face all of this anymore. I have alot of problems this month and last month well it started in September until November well November hurts me.As u see the oldest posts um yeah that's what i'm feeling sad , hopeless , nothing , unwanted , useless and i can't face this problems anymore it hurts! i'm such ...

Assalamualaikum and hello there yesterday was the worst day at first i came to school and then i went to hana's group and talk it was fun and then suddenly hana told me something that i can't accept i was gonna cry but i think i shouldn't cry so i just let it be and we took pictures and pictures we had a class party and it was fun it made my day feel better just a little bit but when i went to dewan and want to take some photos hana told me the hold story again and i called hanis to join and then i feel so unwanted and so stupid plus i was used.But why ? did i even did wrong to you guys "tak rasa bersalah ke".I'm just saying that when i got home i played twitter and facebook and someone posted a status that just..i don't know what to say.I feel like dying i cried so much i feel like the hole in my heart gets bigger. I just don't know what to say anymore all i do is just cry and cry.Somehow i think i'm just useless to everybody but i'm just as...

Assalamualaikum and hello there today i cried alot seeing backstabbers mocking me.I know i'm not perfect but why do you must hurt me did i do anything wrong? But if i did wrong i'm sorry and please forgive me.I know all of these post sound pathetic to you guys but i'm sorry i know who i am retarded 13 y/o girl.I'm just sorry and if you guys want to mock then go ahead it's okay although i know it hurts but it's my fault.I am so sorry.

Assalamualaikum and hello there , anyways Happy Eid Mubarak! I bet you guys have been eating cows n_nV i eat a lot yesterday nyamnyam.Hihi anyways guys you know i haven't think of him since yesterday i think i'm better off without him i'm trying okay.Guys, please pray for me that i just have a feeling for him just a friend feeling lol that sound weird.And i was hoping that this wedenesday will be a new day, new me without loving him i think i'm more happier. My sisters, they always cheer me up whenever i feel down.I love them although sometimes i got mad at them sorry you guys hikhik :'>.I will get my exam papers this thursday. I hope i got straight A's no C's hewhew.I am hungry :S kemon guys feed me.Anyways, guys i just noticed something i look old ;~~~~; actually i do not know what to post but i will for you guys i will n_nV  am i gonna live without knowing him anymore? *thinks* i don't know i will let Allah do all the work, if anything happens ...

Hello there and assalamualaikum. It's been a long time i didn't update my blog okay lets start. Today is Umi's Birthday! She's the best mummy ever noone can replace her with somebody else.I hope i can make her happy and her smile brights my day.Anyways it's been 6 days i haven't saw him at school i miss him.But i've been thinking that i want to let him go someday when i'm ready i don't want to ruine his life with his girlfriend.I might find somebody else but i just can't forget him without him the sun won't shine and the wind won't touch me i feel lifeless. I know i'm pathetic mock me all you guys want but like you guys never fall in love before.I know i must let him go but how it's hard i'm depressed i think i should just go and kill myself it's hard living i know Allah is testing me thank you but i'm suffering though.When i'm sad i curled up at my bed and just cry and punch my heart so that it would stop lovin...