Things Will Never Be Change


Well hello there and assalamualaikum i will make a short post well no really :-P as you olls see in that picture i look happy but apparently i'm not that kinda happy.Today was the last day i'm gonna be form 1 at Smk Jalan Bukit well i grew and grew at times it's tough but i managed to
handle it but what about next year can i manage to handle it? Well let's wait and see what's gonna happen.

Today when i came to school Hanis and Syidah asked "Weh jom lepak padang boringla kat sini" so i followed them at the Dataran Ilmu was crowded of form 2's parents because they wanna take duit RM100 tu.So i sat at the tree Lol actually theres some of those trees was cutted down so half la.I sat there and wander alot sighing, humming and i listens to Adele and Christina Aguilera and suddenly form 5 came out from they're block so i was oh dah habis periksa kot so i let em' be.

So i took some pictures Syidah and Hanis and some trees muehehe :-P.And then we were about to go to Dataran Ilmu i saw him well at first i didn't expect it was him and he waved at me although i can only see was his hand and his head omg lol and i waved at him and just smiled and that's it that's the last day i'll be seeing him although it's just a waved i'll keep it as a memory, sigh.Well after that we went downstairs and head to Dataran Ilmu and Ustazah Aisyah called Syidah and me and Hanis were bored so we left Syidah and ustazah talked and we head padang again and we talked and talked by the look of her face i see that she's missing Aliff i also missed Aliff yeah he always disturbs me when i do anything asking about Hanis.Well times pases by i know that this will be a hard year for me and Hanis and also next year.

I was hoping too much and that's why i need a new life or even a better life i know i can do it but i need someone to support me.Well do you ever feel unwanted, useless? well , i fell it alot of times i cried and sit at the corner of my bed and cried thinking about me.Saying "Why was i stupid theres no point of hoping" i cried again i feel like my heart is full of bruises that can never be cured it's hard living inside of me.Pathetic isn't it? umm , i just wanna say that i do love you but.. i'm nothing remember.I accept the consequences that i'm facing right now but what can i do right now just sit and pretend nothing happen? Well apparently yes, that's me i have nothing to be proud of my grades are bad i said to my mum "Umi, ikah minta maaf sebab tak dapat nak bagi apa yang umi nak" but my mum didn't gave me an answer it's okay i'll wait but next time i'll try my best to make you guys proud of me.

Although i have been different places but i'm still me still Syafiqah and nothing will change that accept Allah.Who knows maybe i'll lost my memories and can't remember anything anymore? only Allah knows.I'm sad and i'm leaving 13 y/o me and being 14 y/o that's hard and the most hardest part is in 2015 i'm facing PMR which is something important to my mum an my dad.I wish i wasn't so stupid... anyways so here are the picture i took it's not that beautiful but it's a sunset :'>



Well that's the sunset hope you guys like it and No, i didn't google it i did took it by myself and anyways love you olls! xx



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