I Hope Your Happy Where Ever You Are


Hello there and assalamualaikum. It's been a long time i didn't update my blog okay lets start. Today is Umi's Birthday! She's the best mummy ever noone can replace her with somebody else.I hope i can make her happy and her smile brights my day.Anyways it's been 6 days i haven't saw him at school i miss him.But i've been thinking that i want to let him go someday when i'm ready i don't want to ruine his life with his girlfriend.I might find somebody else but i just can't forget him without him the sun won't shine and the wind won't touch me i feel lifeless.

I know i'm pathetic mock me all you guys want but like you guys never fall in love before.I know i must let him go but how it's hard i'm depressed i think i should just go and kill myself it's hard living i know Allah is testing me thank you but i'm suffering though.When i'm sad i curled up at my bed and just cry and punch my heart so that it would stop loving him and i feel restless and i just can't live anymore i can't take this! Help me please, i just can't do this anymore.If i let him go i hope that he's happy and he will find what he's looking for and mostly i hope he's happy marrying his girlfriend someday that's only thing i wanted and i know although i'm suffering but am i gonna wait for him to love him that's not gonna happen i know that.I'm sorry you guys but i think i'm giving up on him but i hope someone can teach me how.Next year will be tough though without him i feel nothing.Because of love i changed alot.My friends says i changed, i didn't pay attention on my studies and it's not his fault it's my fault for loving him.

I always wanted to see me happy but i don't know how i've been lying to everybody about my life i'm not happy at all i feel nothing and just want to cry like everyday.I hope Allah can guide me without him someday.This year will be the last year i'll be seeing him.Next week i think i'll be seeing him i think.I'm gonna forget him starting right now.I'm gonna delete his photo in my phone i'm gonna stop talking to him nor smiling to him and i will forget about him."Awak, kita akan lupakan awak okay and kita akan lepas kan awak buat selama-lamanya awak pergila hidup tanpa kita.Takapa, doakan kita happy ye"The pain is the only thing that i know he's exist"

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