Something That I Just Can't Denied


Assalamualaikum and hello there yesterday was the worst day at first i came to school and then i went to hana's group and talk it was fun and then suddenly hana told me something that i can't accept i was gonna cry but i think i shouldn't cry so i just let it be and we took pictures and pictures we had a class party and it was fun it made my day feel better just a little bit but when i went to dewan and want to take some photos hana told me the hold story again and i called hanis to join and then i feel so unwanted and so stupid plus i was used.But why ? did i even did wrong to you guys "tak rasa bersalah ke".I'm just saying that when i got home i played twitter and facebook and someone posted a status that just..i don't know what to say.I feel like dying i cried so much i feel like the hole in my heart gets bigger.

I just don't know what to say anymore all i do is just cry and cry.Somehow i think i'm just useless to everybody but i'm just asking why did they do that to me if this thing would effect them what would they feel i know you can't feel it because you guys aren't in my shoes.Noone in my family knows yet except if my sister is reading okay kakak tu lah apa ikah rasa nanyi ikah ceritakan okay kakak.I don't want to be nuisance so i just kept quiet and just act like nothing has happened.I tried to stop crying but the pain it hurts so much i just can't take it anymore i regret schooling there.Why did i even..i'm afraid that because of this i can't be happy anymore nothing can cure my heart anymore nothing! let it be this way i rather face it and i hope Allah is always beside me helping me.I'm just sorry if i hurt your heart i'm sorry.

I hope today is better than yesterday i feel like my heart is gone.I just couldn't find happiness anymore seeing i'm like this i feel like i'm think i knida torment my self i don't know but i didn't ate since last night and i do have a stomach ache let it be if i have gastric it would be fine with me or even better i didn't exist i know you guys would love that.




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