November Was Nice, Was




Assalamualaikum and hello there well it's been awhile though and yeah, it is December.Well for me it's just a month let Allah decide weather it's gonna be nice or not.I was hoping less crying and just being happy.Last month was so hard for me it starts September until November yeah it's been rough lately 3 months i suffer alot.Ya Allah, please make this month the most happiest month on my life, amin.

Lately, umi is having these terrible headache i asked her is it her blood pressure or something.Well before this she went to Ipoh because her Aunt is in the hospital so she checked he blood pressure that day and her niece is a nurse and she said why didn't she go to the clinic she just knew it.She told me about it and suddenly she said, it's maybe symptom of Cancer and i was shaking and i feel that my body just flew away.I don't want to loose her so badly!

She sacrificed alot for me it's my turn to return the favor i would die for her i don't deserve to live what point of living without her i just can't seeing those other people can but i just can't i'm weak she's everything to me.I don't want to loose her i want next year to be the most perfect year when i'm with her i feel calm and home.I just can't go through this anymore one by one.Allah is testing me i have to be calm but how? The one that i love is going away i don't want that to happen.Take me, don't take her.

She have a beautiful daughter and a handsome son who need her well i'm just their sister.Just take me instead of her.All i want is when i got big i will give the best life that she didn't have in her entire life i just don't want to loose her like badly.Umi is everything to me she's the one that sacrifice alot for me.


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