Hopeless Place


Um hi and assalamualaikum, sigh things never got better it got worst.I have nothing ta say maybe Allah is testing me maybe..well here it goes Hanis is leaving me by leaving i mean leaving Malaysia she will be studying at Melbourne soon! i'm just so sad i feel like she's the only one who can understands me and know who am i and always support me.But why she must go.. and she is facing the largest problem ever Aliff his boyfriend is leaving him he's going to be studying at Indonesia if they go i'll be all alone in Malaysia.I think i being like my sister all of her friends is moving away at this age but why ? don't i deserves friends? i just can't face all of this anymore.

I have alot of problems this month and last month well it started in September until November well November hurts me.As u see the oldest posts um yeah that's what i'm feeling sad , hopeless , nothing , unwanted , useless and i can't face this problems anymore it hurts! i'm such a pathetic person i never had a normal life like all of you guys i have to face by myself without a friend helping me accept Hanis.Well without her theres no point of living i will face my problems alone.She's a good friend and i don't want to loose her..I asked her for how long you'll be living there she said she does not know in Summer she said she'll be going home so i'm happy but it's summer guys lama lagi :'(, sigh.

What shall i do now wait a miracle to happen well i hope so.Next year will be tough i think like i maybe facing the most biggest problem ever well i just don't know.Let's wait and see.But hanis please i'm begging you don't leave me along here without you it's just i feel nothing.Noone will understand me like you do.Maybe if theres hope we'll meet again insyaAllah! i hope i could go to Melbourne and study with her it will be nice but it's never gonna happen.

I already miss aliff talking about food with him and also talked about how's hanis and all of it.Well i know this sound weird but i never told him that i'll be missing him well Aliff rindu kau nanti takada orang lagidah nak mengacau aku bila aku buat kerja! hmm , sigh.Our friendship will last forever it will! i wish nothing happen and noone will be going anywhere just stays in Malaysia and be happy i wish that could happen.But if theres hope it will come true anyways Hanis, Aliff thanks for everything and thank you for making me happy although i just can't be the old Happy-go-lucky "Syafiqah" anymore and thank you for supporting me and thank you for everything that you've guys had done! I will never forget you guys until my last breath promise! Sincerely yours truly, Syafiqah :">

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