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Harini aku nak post bm malas ah nak post english. Sebab emo sangat kan, lawak betul aku ni haha ok. Oh jap Assalamualaikum.  Hm, kan post aku lama tu ada cakap pasal aku konfius pasal itu ini kan. Aku tak rasa aku dah move on, weh bila aku dengar lagu sedih sedih ke apa ke dialah bermain dalam fikiran aku. Kadang-kadang sehari suntuk tu aku boleh diam, aku sayang dia lagi. Aku tahu dia bukan kisah sangat pun. Alahai, siapalah aku sangat bagi dia. Aku dengan dia ni macam stranger je bukannya rapat cam best friend ke apa, tak ah. Tak rapat pun, aku layan dia baru dia layan aku. Aku tahu mungkin dia benci aku ke apa ke. Memang banyak lagi benda aku boleh fikirkan instead perkara ni, aku tahu. Dah hati ni mengada-ngada nak suka kat dia. Pandang sangat pulak dia dengan aku kan. Aku sedar kadang-kadang orang sekarang kejar rupa bukan kejar hati ikhlas ke tak. Aku bukanlah orang yang experience ke apa no. Tak pernah pun, tapi aku buat statement ni that doesn't mean yang aku nak ada re...

Assalamualaikum and hi there. So happy holidays for malasyians and the whole country((who's have a vacay right now)) so um this thing was playing on my mind idk whether it's normal or not it's really random. I'm so awkward with this feeling, its just that idk whether what's wrong and what's right. I'm really confused. I don't know but some part of me thinks that i just moved on, i mean i don't care about him anymore. I hardly even get those butterflies anymore and i don't even care whether he is online or offline. It's sort of a tsunami i mean it just take my feelings for him away. Is it okay? Am i moving on or i have moved on or smthing? But sometimes i do feel that way and then the next day i'm that person that cares again. I just don't know what's wrong with me. Am i having idk but what's wrong with me. If this moving on feeling is going through about a week, month or anything i hope its real. Its time to move on, i mean...

"Sometimes you can't choose what stays and what fades away" Assalmaualaikum and hello there. This week has been the toughest week. I did cried for some stupid things. But it was really a tough week though. Exams, exams exams yeap. I did cried about exams, i'm afraid that my marks aren't good enough for my parents to be proud of me.  But actually some of them aren't about examinations it's about something that saddens me. No it's not about my crush. Everyone is sort of avoiding me, i feel so invisible and unwanted to everybody. The loneliness that haunting me these days are just horrible. I maybe can smile or laugh but no one knows what's in my heart. The pain i bear everyday, the things i see everyday, the actions that's happening around me is effecting me.  I maybe not the same girl i used to be.  But i'm hoping that i can be a better me. It's the best for me. But wanting that feeling of unwanted, been avoid too is really hard to fo...

Actually we don't have our picture taken together, instead of that i took this lol Assalamualaikum and hello there. Well today we went to a so call "studying" but we did well some of it we're just gossiping. Hahaha, yeah it sort of kill the stressing mood. So i went to McD today to study. So from the first the black toms is me lol and from the left is mimi and the right is shadatul and the front of me is hanis.  Guess what, hanis is not moving to melbourne i was shocked at first but it was the most happiest thing that a friend could have. Thank you Allah. It's a remarkable fate. Fate brought us here and here we are still standing. Today was fun, met some of my school mates and yeah they were like what are you doing here and chat. It was a really sunny day and yeah it was fun. Went out with these three beautiful girls. Hahahah we we're the most loudest one, thank god people weren't that irritated by our fun-ess. Lol. Anyways, we studied science and we ...

"I'm learning to move on, i know its hard but you have to try somehow" Assalamualaikum and hi there. Its been awhile isn't it? Hahaha yeap it is. Well lately, i've been kinda busy with school. Mid-term is coming and i'm working my butt off. So here i go telling all my problems. Like you even care. Anyways yeah. I'm fine yes fine. This month i think its going to be the most hardest month every firstly, i have to sit on an exam which is mid-term. I worked my butt off and hoping that i could answer those questions calmly. But, after exam there's this huge impact is coming. Hanis is leaving and the date is getting nearer. I'm really sad.  People that i love the most is leaving. Everyone changed, i changed. It's a major heartbreak. I don't know what should i do. What should say. What should react. It's speechless. I'm not saying it worthless. But it's sad, word cannot speak how am i right now. My life is really changed. Those happ...