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"You've tried  so hard to hide your scars" Assalamualaikum and hello there, so you guys see that picture? Yes i'm crying it's awful but if you can read my eyes, yes i'm in pain. I'm tired of everything, please make it stop. I just can't control my feelings. Everyday, every night i cry. I just can't take it anymore. It's killing me, i just can't... Seeing he's happy with part of his life makes me happy, somehow i just can't control my feelings and my i keep crying. This just sick! i feel so restless and exhausted. He doesn't need me, i have to face the fact but why can't i face the fact. I kept saying that for trillion times but it didn't work out at all. I really want to talk to him and tell about everything, no i'm not craving for sympathy or i want him to broke up with his girlfriend not at all. I just, i want him to know. Keeping this feeling for him is like pulling a trigger and let the bullets stays at my hear...

"Macam cina cakap melayu" - Ruhul Hayat Assalamualaikum harini aku nak buat short entry je kot malas lah nak panjang-panjang. Ha, dah tengok gambar diatas? Lawak to the max, ruhul ruhul. Okay topik harini "Lopek" aku tahu lawak ye memang lawak pun. Gelak lah gelak. Satu aku lopek nak berbahasa melayu eh kejap okay je, i mean lopek untuk berkarangan atau pemahaman. Yang aku tahu pemahaman aku memang lopek lah kan. Bak kata mak aku "Kau ni ikah berbangsa melayu tapi tak reti nak score A dalam pemahaman" kakak aku "weh pemahaman senangla!" ye aku memang lemah bab-bab pemahaman kalau soalan am dan senang tu petik jari je jawab memang senang. Tapi bila peribahasa, pantun segala memang aku dah lopek lagi lagi peribahasa. Ya Allah, apa nak jadi dengan aku ni bahasa sendiri pun lopek. Kadang-kadang aku rasa malu sebab orang cina atau india mendapat A dalam pemahaman. Sedihnya hidup tetapi, aku penulisan bagus tahu. Memang aku bagus penulisan, maybe id...

"Kau tu lelaki, aku ni perempuan. Banyak perbezaan" Assalamualaikum, rasanya aku dah terbiasa berbahasa melayu. Lantaklah, korang yang baca jugak kan. Okay topik pada harini dengar macam ganas ye memang ganas. Mungkin semua perempuan pernah melalui situasi begini. Manalah tahu kan, sebernanya aku dah kena lama tapi baru sekarang nak cerita. Kejadian tersebut, sentiasa bermain di fikiran aku. Jeng jeng jeng, okay camni aku namakan dua lelaki tu Kura-kura denagn Batu. Lmao Situasi 1: Kura-Kura: Hai awak Aku:  em, hi *dengan awkward-nya* Kura-Kura: Awak sihat?  Aku: sihat, alhamdulillah Kura-Kura: oh awak taknak tanya saya? takpa saya jawab sendiri, saya batuk dan selesema *buat muka sedih* Aku:  *dalam hati: pehal dengan mamat ni gedik ternyata* oh  Kura-Kura: oh je, sayang? Aku: *geli* asal dengan kau panggil aku sayang ni doh? disturbing tahu. Kura-Kura: Saya suka lah panggil orang sayang, huhuhuhu Aku: ................  *diam* Itu situasi 1 punyalah geli, m...

" I'm not asking much, just to love me with all your heart." Assalamualaikum and hello there so i yes, recently i've been updating like everyday but not as always if i got something to tell i'll update it. But this isn't a big situation hehe. The weather today is so calm, nice yeah it's great. So here it goes. So do you watch Long Distance Relationship? It was so romantic i nearly cried omg i would love to have that kinda relationship but if.... yes if. The last part hm it was sad well it's like they never met before. It's really hard but they can maintain they're relationship though. Okay so i want a relationship that's really i mean like we don't fight much and misunderstood wow that's a no no. Well who wants to fight. To be honest, i never had a relationship with anyone and no i'm not desperate not at all. I'm just idk....  Okay so i want a guy that can understand me and never ask me to open my hijab in front of the we...

“ when the night has no eve, as the morning when you leave ” " I try to run away from the pain, but everywhere I go I have memories of you " " Your watching yourself rip to shreds and laughing as you bleed " “ I never really knew you, you were just another friend, but when I got to know you, I let my heart unbend. I couldn’t help past memories that would only make me cry I had to forget my first love and give love another try so I fell in love with you and I’ll never let you go. I love you more than anything I just had to let you know and if you ever wonder why I don’t know what I’ll say but just remember one thing I love you. ” "for you'd i wait" BUT SAMPAI BILA?

               " If only I had your eyes close forever, I bet you would fall for me."                            Assalamualaikum and hello there it's been a long time hm yeah well lately i've been using phone not laptop so yeah okay so today i went to school, i accompanied hanis to school today she got Taekwondo so i went with her and i also joined it, haiyyak! So today was tiring, we ran idk 5 or 8 laps it's really tiring and we do some stretching and stuffs. After that we jumped in Taekwondo there's a lot of jumping and kicking. Whoa, so i jumped, kick and etc. After that the seniors (black belt) teaches us how to kick. It was fun, but 99% of them are chinese. Well hahaha, actually i didn''t took Taekwondo, hanis did i just   accompanied her. Hehehe so after that Taekwondo ended. And me and hanis went to Kajang to eat i was starving. So we ate at Giant's food court...

Assalamualaikum and hello there ^o^ boy, it's been awhile i didn't post anything cause i was to lazy and run out of ideas. So let's begin, okay today i would like to share our good memories hehehe okay i'll try Bismillahirrahmanirrahim eh before that listen to the song well it's in my blog not yours Window Media Player hehehe. Cute isn't it it's from Yuna, terukir di bintang you guys should see the video boy, it's so cute ^o^ Okay let's start so it's been 8 days counts the first second... and so on it was fun first day was totally awkward literally totally awkward haha. Okay this week it was hella fun, homegal! it was fun. And it got better but i miss him every time i stroll around school i suddenly gaze about him and remembers the moments but that was the past now it's present i can't change anything. He's someone's and he and his girlfriend looks happy. I don't want to screw they're relationship not at all. I must try ...

Assalamualaikum and hello there so this is kinda a quick update okay let me begin! So actually today wasn't the first day of school it is actually the second yesterday i was busy hehe actually i slept at 8:30 p.m cause i was to tired and the story begins ~ So i got to school about 12:30 and it was packed with parents/students/teachers i was like whoa, there's a lot of form 1 here haih.. so i walked to my friends and they were like "Syafiqah, syafiqah" and i'm like hehe hi. I wasn't shy, i felt awkward in so many ways. Idk maybe the lack of confidence? Probably yeah probably. Lately i've been feeling lonely/frustrated/sad idk why maybe because it's a new year well i hope there's no more playing around i'm growing up. Hah! speaking of growing up hehe i'll 14 this January 11th yay! InsyaAllah :-) i'm grateful well hehe i've been saying this like 2 or 3 posts right? So stick with the topic sorry :/ so i looked around and smiled at a...

Assalamualaikum and hi there! So as you guys know school is starting this Wednesday well that is tomorrow hehe. What? Okay i know i have to start sleeping early but i have these eerie feeling about this year hehe, idk why it's kinda weird though but yet i'm excited for school god i can't believe i said that but hey i said it. So there's gonna be a lot of dramas now.  I don't call myself senior yet cause i'm 14 and yes 13 and 14 are at the afternoon session and 14 is kinda "senior" at the afternoon session but still people kept calling me senior ugh it's kinda annoying. Hey btw this year mum bought school stuffs for me and all of it is pink, accept for the bag i choose it thank god she didn't hehe. So that Roxy purse have been with me for 3 years count this year i love that purse. I took care of it but i need a new purse heheheheheh. So i don't have complete stationery hm cause i was to lazy to buy it hehehe. So this year stuffs, pink ne...