You've Been Alone For So Long


               "If only I had your eyes close forever, I bet you would fall for me."                          
Assalamualaikum and hello there it's been a long time hm yeah well lately i've been using phone not laptop so yeah okay so today i went to school, i accompanied hanis to school today she got Taekwondo so i went with her and i also joined it, haiyyak!

So today was tiring, we ran idk 5 or 8 laps it's really tiring and we do some stretching and stuffs. After that we jumped in Taekwondo there's a lot of jumping and kicking. Whoa, so i jumped, kick and etc. After that the seniors (black belt) teaches us how to kick. It was fun, but 99% of them are chinese. Well hahaha, actually i didn''t took Taekwondo, hanis did i just accompanied her. Hehehe so after that Taekwondo ended. And me and hanis went to Kajang to eat i was starving. So we ate at Giant's food court. 

After that we went home, actually we walked home it was exhausting omg really (penat gila) so when i came home i take off my sports clothes and put on normal clothes. And i want to updated my blog actually and then i was to tired and i slept. It was a long nap i love it. Okay so there it is, let's talk about school. Okay school this week is good. Yesterday, we have this meeting for our Coco (Kokurikulum) it was great. I shouldn't bring my books hahaha. So for my Badan Beruniform i took Kadet Remaja Sekolah, hehehe i was forced to hm. For my pesatuan is KKWP (Kewartawanan dan Penyiaran) It's kinda like a reporter hehe. And for my permainan is Bola Baling, shiuuuuu~ hihi.

Yeah that's the "things" i took lol. Since i was 13 i want KKWP but my class teacher doesn't let me to. Hhahaha and for KRS (Kadet Remaja Sekolah) I got to be Naib Pengurusi (vice-chairman). For persatuan i got to be a Pengerusi ^o^ (chairman) and for permainan i got to be a Juruaudit (auditor). So yeah that's a big responsibility haih.. especially KKWP that's a hard job but i will try. So any activity or any engagement i have to bring my camera. Yes i have to write a report about it and give it to my advisory teacher.

Anyways, i got my Yearbook (2011) already yay! I'm so happy, there's a lot of pictures of my crush hehehe. Cause he also design it w/ his other friends. Yeah there is a lot i mean like really a lot. But i don't mind, if i miss him i can look at his photos. Hm lifeless me "There are more than 7 billion people in this word. You should be lucky cause your the only one i love" yes you. But no worries i don't mind if he doesn't like me. I know it hurts but i have to move on. Must-stop-hoping :<

InsyaAllah i'll try, but i don't know if i can. I think can't. I really think i can't. I miss him, his smile, his giggles, his voice everything but i don't want to be a bitch screwing somebody's relationship. Hm.... but i will try i must. Starting now? InsyaAllah you will get married with the one you love, it's fine i don't mind it hurts, the pain, suffer. But it's my life i'll bear it. Assalamualaikum xo

"At the end, she quits and just started to smile. Although the pain that she hides. But there's always a rainbow or a sunshine after raining"

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