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Hello Earthlings and assalamualaikum! it's been a long time i didn't update my blog hmm maybe i do not what to post about sorry though.Um, my grandma is in the hospital it's been 1 week now so my father is kinda busy at night cause he have night shift guarding my grandma.So this week is kinda tough for me my kittens died hmm Ginger and Tikus aha i know they're name is kinda weird but yeah.Hmm they died am just don't know what to do now i only have Siam and Pepper.Sadlife isn't it? i am not blaming god but maybe my mood this week is like ergh, my hormones.I just mad at everyone and i cried almost everyday thinking about him and my life i just want to die it's tough when you get older well i know i'm just thirteen but being one is just so hard for me.I'm sorry Allah i'm not blaming you i know it's your choice to do this to me. I just can't stop crying i can't even concentrate when i'm studying.I just want to die! i don't deser...

Hey and Assalamualaikum readers so yesterday my sister knew about that dude at first i was shocked and then i tried to think positively she's my sister and she deserves to know.So i just let her know about him and then she said "Does have a gf" so i said yes and my sister said find someone else ika, but kakak i can't i'm madly in love with him what shall i do.So i was gonna let her see his gf on his twitpic and then suddenly he remove his twitter i was like eh? what's wrong i thought it was twitter's fault well , sometimes twitter is ove capacity and etc.So i logged off and try to logged in and it was true he deleted his twitter acc but why he did that? is it because spm is like around the corner but how am i gonna say goodluck to him and chat with him. I really miss him  i have to wait 1 week and then i can see him but i don't know if he'll come.Um , so just now his brother chat with me we talk and talk and talk and he's sleepy so he said ...

Heyyurh and Assalamualaikum peeps, today i dreamt of him it was a nice dream! I dreamt that i was having a party at my house and he was there with his father, at first i was cleaning the dishes and he said hi i said hi to him he was holding his bb and i said tak habis-habis dengan bb dia tu ;p and he smiled after that he wants to go home so he take the train and looks like his father doesn’t use to go to train so my sister was convincing them and i was just smiling at him after that i went to this place i don’t know where it is and he’s and his father are talking about me and he ran from the train to me, suddenly i saw him running to me and smiling i was like what are you doing here the weird part i said it’s like 36 km it was weird haha, after that he held my hand and say i love you i think your the one for me, and he never let go of my hand and that’s the dream sweet ait?  But i wish it was real before this when i fell in love it’s hard for me to dream of him but now am like d...

Hey and Assalamualaikum :) so today was boring and yeah he grad and saw his photos from his friends profile although just some of it but it means alot to me, man.Today someone added me(lol)yeah, yeah i know i maybe kinda menunjuk-nunjuk am sorry just to say she just look like me n_nV she's 17 which da same class he goes to btw she's so cute i just wanna hug her! hihi ;3 today i was expecting him to online at twitter and i wait and wait well maybe he asleep or something i wish he had a great day today and also tomolo.Nothing happened today it's just a normal-ish day.Well 5th November i got a reunion at Mines well i think mines is kinda boring but no offence who loves to go there.It really does i suggest Jusco aeon Cheras Selatan but they wanted to go mines i don't if i wanna go.I miss him (T__T) ummph i really need him to hug me somehow lol no. But i really do, hmm i dn't know what to do when he's gone and he also gunna go to university am so not gonna see him ...

Heyyurh and Assalamualaikum peeps! so yesterday i went to school it's a normal day things got better between me with fatihah we talked smiled at each other, i felt better.Exam is like around the corner so i better apologize to the people that i hurt.So readers forgive me if i do wrong or etc.Today form 5 grad so i feel like he is leaving me hmm i'm gonna loose him next year am so sad ;~;. I wish i can stay 2011 which is stay 13 and he can be 17 forever with me and also after 3 years i bet he'll be marrying the girl he love.I don't know what to do it's hard for me to just go through and forget him but how? he doesn't even know i love him.I will miss his smile his voice calling my name.I wish we were never met :-( uhhuk...i don't want that either.How am i gonna do.I just wanted to say to him that i love him so badly but i just can't :-( he doesn't even belong to me.Sometimes it's hard when you fall inlove whith someone and you have to forget abou...

  Hi and assalamualaikum to my fellow readers lol if i have o>O.If your my reader thankyou! for reading my not-so-ohsem blog hikhik.So today i lost my precious pencil box i love that thing it have been living with me since i was 10 y/o i know it's impossible to believe but yup dat's true man.I didn't got to see him i thought today he came but he didn't he got an awful headache you poor thing hun.He's rushing cause SPM is like around da corner i wish he got straight A's and got married with his Girlfriend one day i know he's not for me but everytime i see him my heart beat as fast as it could i wish to say to him what my feelings are for him but i'm afraid of rejection and etc. Um, lol am mocking this gurl at facebook she's just such a faggot.Anyway back to da topic and yes i must stop loving him but i can't once i fall inlove it's hard for me not-to fall in love with him i just could say i have to forget about him my finals is like aroun...

Assalamualaikum and Hey it's been a long time i didn't post anything well i'm sorry.Actually last month was hard well it's just been so hard.I cried today my friends take advantage of me they said they only friend with me because i'm clever whoa! all this time they never liked me i feel so stupid and useless for trusting them but why did they did this to me i never did anything to them they finally said to me it hurts me.I guess people these days never cared about everybody's feeling. All this time i talk about all of my secrets to them it was nothing for them it's just nothing.And yes i am sad and mad why would they did that i can't understand why is it so hard for them to just approve me for who i am not for somebody else.All this time we've been besties but for them i was nothing they said it clearly. Things got better when Hanis, Farhah, Aqilah, Anis, Nad, Wanie they try too calm me down i really appreciate it guys.It's okay maybe some...