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Assalamualaikum and hi there well lately i've been listening to a lot of sigur ros's songs, well actually it wasn't because they visited malaysia it was because i was kinda amazed on people's review about them and so i made my mind to listen to one of the songs well what i like the most is varud. It's a pretty good song and ekki mukk, fjogur piano and some of them.  Somehow when i listen to sigur ros it makes me want to be a better person maybe how the song hypnotize you, while you listening to it you feel like your soul was separated from your body. Wow somehow i sound like this song is making me high or some what hahahah. But its a great band and soley, bjork yeah and some of them and from out of nowhere i feel like waiting on someone you love will pay the price someday i don't know but i feel like a waste giving up on him.  I feel like i shouldn't give up on him, i should try well if you don't try you won't know what's gonna hap...

Assalamualaikum and hi there, its been a not that fun week though. I've been staying at home and its kind of boring, how lifeless i am spending my time on the internet. But i'm not talking about that its about something else, something that i've been talking a lot lately and that is pretty boring cause i keep repeating the same thing though. So, i've cried about lot's of things but all the time i cried was because i feel empty. Nothing fills my heart, nothing. I feel like the wind is taking me away i can feel it through my fingers. I feel empty, numb..... nothing. Sometimes i feel like i'm the only person who's living in this world, walking alone, living alone when actually i have people around me. I've been sleeping a lot lately cause its the only exit from this horrible nightmare but once i step in my "dreamland" i'm happy, as happy as i can be. I can say that i'm pretty tired but i know no matter how i hate this year i'm so g...

I asked myself whether i love him or not, i do god knows how i love him so much. But i feel stupid loving a guy that will never know will never feel the same way i feel for him. Trust me there's no words to describe, no sentence are enough to describe how perfect he is. But he loves somebody else why am i holding on to him. Why can't i face the fact that he will never be mine, i asked a friend of mine "i think i should move on and start saying goodbye, but i can't its too hard, why?" "because you love him"  A silent moment between us two, i don't know what to say. She's right i love him, how can i ever let him go. But i'm trying my best sometimes i just want to go far away cause the guilt of liking him too much is haunting me i don't even know why i even feel guilty liking him too much well maybe i'm afraid that this would happen. But it has happened i can't run from it, the more i run the more it will haunt me. But its useles...

Assalamualaikum and hi there so apparently i promised to blog after final exam is over. Well it ended over a week ago, i'm sorry. Is it weird why i suddenly miss how perfect things were last year although there's a lot that i've been through on that year. But somehow how i miss last year so today is 10/11/12 and tomorrow is... 11/11/12. Still remember that one time where i told you guys about what happened on that date? I'm kinda in the dilemma mood ceh. Well you can't expect me to forget about it? Although its been a year. But what i've been through on that day no one can understand. How hurt i felt, how betrayed i felt and how used i felt. How does it feel to be mocked just because you only like this one guy?  I tried to be nice to everyone and if being nice is a wrong thing to do then i should stop, and start thinking about myself. Yes starting on that day, i eat less, talk less. I don't do much on that day. I'm sad knowing that these things is...