Not Anymore

Assalamualaikum and hi there so apparently i promised to blog after final exam is over. Well it ended over a week ago, i'm sorry. Is it weird why i suddenly miss how perfect things were last year although there's a lot that i've been through on that year. But somehow how i miss last year so today is 10/11/12 and tomorrow is... 11/11/12.

Still remember that one time where i told you guys about what happened on that date? I'm kinda in the dilemma mood ceh. Well you can't expect me to forget about it? Although its been a year. But what i've been through on that day no one can understand. How hurt i felt, how betrayed i felt and how used i felt. How does it feel to be mocked just because you only like this one guy?  I tried to be nice to everyone and if being nice is a wrong thing to do then i should stop, and start thinking about myself.

Yes starting on that day, i eat less, talk less. I don't do much on that day. I'm sad knowing that these things isn't over yet. I still like him, i miss him a lot i don't know how much longer i should wait for him although the last time i saw him was a very long time ago. But i don't want to get so  caught up still waiting for him, waiting for a miracle to happen. Although i know it's impossible. Well actually its been awhile i haven't miss him like how i miss him right now. I sort of feel like i'm attached to him.

I guess he was the first person i truly like a lot until now its impossible for me to forget him. He made me feel different, but that different made me who i am now. I've changed well actually it's a good thing i've changed. But i'm afraid that i might wait for him for a quiet a long time, what should i do. Yea we still talk, but not that often. I miss him, a lot.


 
; well november its been a very long time 


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