I Never Did

Assalamualaikum and hi there, its been a not that fun week though. I've been staying at home and its kind of boring, how lifeless i am spending my time on the internet. But i'm not talking about that its about something else, something that i've been talking a lot lately and that is pretty boring cause i keep repeating the same thing though.

So, i've cried about lot's of things but all the time i cried was because i feel empty. Nothing fills my heart, nothing. I feel like the wind is taking me away i can feel it through my fingers. I feel empty, numb..... nothing. Sometimes i feel like i'm the only person who's living in this world, walking alone, living alone when actually i have people around me. I've been sleeping a lot lately cause its the only exit from this horrible nightmare but once i step in my "dreamland" i'm happy, as happy as i can be.

I can say that i'm pretty tired but i know no matter how i hate this year i'm so gonna miss it, i've been through a lot this year and i think that next year would be a pretty good year, i think so. What i hope is a new me, a new life. Boy, its been a really hard year and a great memory to be told someday. Hah, what i'm hoping is; i can be happy.

Happy hahah such a strange word but it brings joy to everyone including me. But what's the point of being happy when your world is falling each day. Every step you took, every mistake you did you'll keep falling, deeper and deeper. I know its been months but my love never dies, it gets stronger each day but i know you wouldn't care to know anyways hah.

; i cried, for happiness, for sadness, but most of all, for emptiness