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Assalamualaikum, my exam is okay well we start with the easier subjects (sort of) such as; seni, sivik, pj and etc. Next week are the big ones hoping to get at least B on everything or an A would be great i don't want to bail my parents this time cause i'm the only one will be in school for the next couple of months. Its always been suck being youngest and sometimes lucky haha Putting a distance to myself from social networks such as; twitter, blogger, facebook and some other shits. But yeah i do feel kinda bored but i have exams i don't want to spend my whole exam week on internet i have work my butt off to get into a decent class. I'm in the forth class, i feel like i should work on it getting in to a better class well my class is okay but i don't want to stay in that class forever at least i can go to the second class or idk. I hope i won't go to the fifth class i hope so. I really need to buckle up and read more do some questions on every exercise b...

Assalamualaikum, i thought when i don't think too much on this it won't haunt me or effect me but it did. Everything isn't the same anymore every step i take i feel like i'm falling down each day. It's my fault for hoping too much i'm not putting a big blame on him. He didn't do anything, i did it to myself. Yes i am stressed out, who's not. I know it's time to move on, but moving on isn't easy. It takes time, well i have a lot of time but every breath i inhale i thought of him it's hard for me to forget how i feel for him i want us to be friends but i just hope the feeling want to be more than it, would stop. If it's the best i will, i can't bear on this anymore. I'm happy for him, i always did. If you're reading this, i've always love you from the beginning i never stop. You take my breath away sometimes, i love that feeling. But why should hope on something that can't never be mine. If you know how i feel for y...

Assalamualaikum, things are getting worse this does not what i want in this month i was hoping things are getting better but it's not. Everything is falling each day, i feel like someone pushed me of a cliff yet i feel like i'm chained into pain, sorrow, heartache. Somehow i don't think i can find happiness this time if i won't move on and forget him. Some say to me "just don't think about it" how can i not think of it cause the only thing that is playing on my mind is him, only him. Yes i am tired but saying it lots of times won't change the fact how i'm feeling right now. I want to move on as how hard it is i do but somehow some part of him makes it so hard for me to move on. I don't know i guess i'm fully attached to him and forget about the consequences that i'll be facing. Is sighing a lot normal i mean a really long sigh? Is isolating yourself from others normal? Is gazing a lot normal? Is it normal? Can i run from reality, c...