Serenity


Assalamualaikum, things are getting worse this does not what i want in this month i was hoping things are getting better but it's not. Everything is falling each day, i feel like someone pushed me of a cliff yet i feel like i'm chained into pain, sorrow, heartache. Somehow i don't think i can find happiness this time if i won't move on and forget him.

 Some say to me "just don't think about it" how can i not think of it cause the only thing that is playing on my mind is him, only him. Yes i am tired but saying it lots of times won't change the fact how i'm feeling right now. I want to move on as how hard it is i do but somehow some part of him makes it so hard for me to move on. I don't know i guess i'm fully attached to him and forget about the consequences that i'll be facing.

 Is sighing a lot normal i mean a really long sigh? Is isolating yourself from others normal? Is gazing a lot normal? Is it normal? Can i run from reality, can i run from all these shits i've been through lately. But i can't do anything to make it go away. Some people say things will work don't worry, chin up there's much more better things you need to be concern of. Will it? will it work out? will i finally move on? Will i?

 These questions need answers but i know the answers are at me. Will i finally move on, God knows when will i or will i not. But i'm hoping i will cause i can't stand this anymore i just can't. As i can see right now, he likes somebody else and i'm happy for it. Although it hurts so much but i can't do anything it's his life his choice. What he do it is he's fate all i can do is pray the best for him.

 The thing i want is right now is for my love ones to be happy. If they are i guess it brights up my day although it is pain. All i can say to myself is "it's just a bad day, it will be okay tomorrow insyaAllah" i hope Allah has better plans for me in the future insyaAllah, i hope so i can find my way back i can find ways to be happy. But all i can do is right now is smile, smile like there's no tomorrow, laugh like there's no tomorrow. I hope things get better...... soon

 ; maybe none of us really understand what we've lived through, or feel we've had enough time

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