Time


Assalamualaikum, i thought when i don't think too much on this it won't haunt me or effect me but it did. Everything isn't the same anymore every step i take i feel like i'm falling down each day. It's my fault for hoping too much i'm not putting a big blame on him. He didn't do anything, i did it to myself. Yes i am stressed out, who's not.

 I know it's time to move on, but moving on isn't easy. It takes time, well i have a lot of time but every breath i inhale i thought of him it's hard for me to forget how i feel for him i want us to be friends but i just hope the feeling want to be more than it, would stop. If it's the best i will, i can't bear on this anymore.

 I'm happy for him, i always did. If you're reading this, i've always love you from the beginning i never stop. You take my breath away sometimes, i love that feeling. But why should hope on something that can't never be mine. If you know how i feel for you, if you know. But it won't change anything anyways, why would anyone want me i bring no luck to anyone i know. I'm not craving for sympathy but it's true.

 Sometimes i think tears are my companion these days, yes i do laugh endlessly, smile a lot. But at the end of the day i know that happiness is just for awhile i know i can be happy if i just work on it and leave this behind. I wish i was strong enough to face all of this but i'm not as strong as you think. I'm weak, i can't.

 Yes, i do love him a lot. But he doesn't know that i want him to know, but what's the used he loves somebody else. Maybe for him it doesn't matter at all if i tell him so what's the difference.I have to try to forget how i feel for him, i will try my best. Although i have to face all these things. I will try maybe hm, i'm sorry.

 ; i felt like I was trapped in one of those terrifying nightmares, the one where you have to run, run till your lungs burst, but you can’t make your body move fast enough

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