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i don't want to question what's the content in your heart, all i know she is one heck of a lucky girl aite? she's lovely and i believe she will bring the light in your life once again. i'm just a shadow that has been chasing for years, months and days. i've been longing for your presence, i want to let go so much i want to move on so much but i'm afraid if i do so i might hurt you. i mean that's how i feel, i feel as if i was the one who's leaving scars inside your heart. your happiness is my greatest pain but it's alright because as long as you're happy as long as you're living your to the fullest it'll be just enough to fill the content in my heart. i love you so much even i can't explain why. i know it sounds creepy i, myself too is creepy. yea, who doesn't wish someone whom you treasure the most to feel the same way. i keep on repeating this word to myself over and over again "i guess it's just not meant to be" to be honest it wasn't meant to be from the start anyway. i don't know why i expect too much good things that'll happen in my life, all i hear from people around me is how pitiful my life is. it doesn't matter how pitiful it is i knew it from the start that this is how it's going to be. i will always be on the end of the road waiting and waiting. my friends asked me to move on to just forget him, how though. it was always him from the start, i've tried liking other guys believe me i did. by the end of the day i will tell myself "what the heck am i doing" and the feelings will just fade away. i am messed up, the reason i'm in this state is because of my own decision. i made my own decision and now i'll pay the price. i'm so tired, i don't even know how many times has it been said. i'm just running in circles, keep on repeating my steps keep on repeating my own bullshits. i am a fucked up sixteen year old. why am i even like this 

“Everything changes. With the way that I feel, seems impossible I'll stay the same.”  ― Evolution, The Used