flicker, fade

if i didn't went to camp the other day i could've seen that pretty face of yours. you have no idea how long i waited for that special day to come because it was my only i mean the only way i could see you. i'm not sure what the future might be, we might bump in to each other. or we might meet up. isn't it funny how i just can't see other guys just like how i see you, i am indeed a depressing sixteen year old teen. i hope we could meet, a day out to the cinema would be nice or maybe never. i feel distant from you, i search every corner maybe you would've suddenly come up. i wish that could happen haha i keep on imagining things quiet often these days. i miss you for the hunderd thousand of times i miss you so much. i know you don't care, i know you love her, i know you'll never lay your eyes on me i know that. but they say miracles happen every day but a person like me doesn't deserve those kind of miracle. i do believe in it, i just i don't believe that i have those kind of things. what i really wanted to say it; go for it, achieve your dreams, open up a gallery, be a successful architect, don't let your guard down always keep your head held up high. don't ever think about what others would say just do it, do the things you love and be well and most importantly be happy, the happiest you could be. this is all i can say i can't put it into words because when i'm in front of you i might stutter or might not say a word. as a friend i'm asking you to be happy that is all i ever wanted you to be.

“me, i was holding all of my secrets soft and hid. pages were folded, then there was nothing at all.”  ― We Don't Eat, James Vincent McMorrow