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i keep telling myself it'll get better but its not. its getting worse because all i want is if only he could give me a chance to prove that i love him with all my heart and only god knows how true my love is for him but unfortunately it only happens in movies, i don't think someone like me deserves that kind of chance. i convinced myself that this is it i'm gonna start forgetting everything that ever happened  and start moving on, be happy once again but i was wrong here i am remembering all those memories i've made, crying over everything i chose to be sad all the time. honestly, all i want is you to listen to me just once how important you are in my life, how big the impact made, how it changed me and made the person who i am right now. you've become into something i never want to lose, you're important to me, i love you more than anything could offer. i know you will reject me right away but that's okay all i want is just to tell you how i really love you. ten thousand words wouldn't be enough telling you why i love you, i just do but who am i kidding this won't happen and it will never. so as always all i gotta do right now is just forget. 

“Now that I have opened that bottle of memories they're pouring out like wine, crimson and bittersweet.” ― Ellen Hopkins, Impulse

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