moments


have you ever just look at someone who used to mean everything to you and just clicked? the past suddenly came in and you're just standing there looking at him/her the urge of hugging them, the urge of telling them not to go, the urge of telling them you're still here waiting. to be honest, i've never felt like this before it hurts to see, listen to the fact that i'm no longer that someone's present, future but just a past. this was the greatest year yet the greatest pain i've felt, i've never seen myself falling into a big hole deeper and deeper. it's upsetting to know i'm such a mess. it's stupid to miss the past but i just can't stop looking at it. every corner in the school has it's moment, has it's memory. because that is the only place where i get to see you, walk pass you, watch you laugh, look at those sweet smile of yours. moments they all gather and leave a big hole in my heart. as cliche as i sound i want to go back, further back july 2012; where all the happiness begins. i still have feelings for you but i need to remind myself it is time for me to let you go. i know i can, i know i can go through all of this. i am happy, the fact that i have my friends, family i feel complete but it saddens me when i started to get this missing-the-past feeling. you belong to someone and i know she is going to make you happy and i know it is killing me ripping every inch of my heart but at least you are happy

our life is a series of moments, let them go. let them all go

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