if it was a mistake

I haven't wrote anything here for quite a long time all i do is i post pictures and just a short post just to make you clear i am feeling better but i'm not sure with it. I feel like a distant from him like there's a wall between us. I'm not sure, i don't even know am i recovering or just the same. Actually the problem is i miss him, him that guy. That guy i would go nuts at every minute, that guy... that dude.

 I wish i could turn back time and do what i should do and say what i was supposed to say to him. But apparently we all get the part where we can't turn back time. I pray most of the time so that i can feel that moment or see or dream. Somehow i just think that everything is slipping through my fingertips. Nothing has been right.

 I know i should get back on track but i don't even know what track am i ot. All i do this time is i watch everything slipping away and not doing anything about it just standing there. I feel he is slipping away, fading away. Or am i just lost or it was just a mistake

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