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I think the time has come for me to move on. I'm done fighting for something i know i can't and won't ever have. It hurts, yeah it feels like someone is stabbing you're heart. I feel numb, nothing but overall i feel empty. I'm glad to have my friends around me they can take the pain away for quiet some time to be frank, they're like my happy pills. But its not enough to mend what has happened, apparently they asked to not to think about it but how when he's the only one been going through my mind. These past few weeks, months had been great almost perfect but i guess it has to end. Let's not put the blame on him, its my fault like they say high expectations leads to great disappointments ya he's everything that i've ever wanted but i can't do anything i've tried and tried but i guess its just not meant to be. 

Ya crying its not a routine but ya i do that a lot these past few days. Let's just say i was having a great time and suddenly this happened out of nowhere it just happened. But yeah i need that i mean somebody has to speak and i have to stop convincing myself that he feels the same way. It was great these past few months it was great nothing i could've imagined. He's really nice but i guess this is how its going to be, for the last its not his fault. I get really mad when people point that it's his fault, no it wasn't it was mine for the last effin' time it was mine. I hope things won't go awkward between me and him well actually has starting to feel awkward haha.

But i'm done fighting for him, i'm done trying i mean what's the used he can't see it plus i can't make him love me. Yeah moving on is hard but i have to try cause if you won't try you won't know. It'll be hard but i'll try my best, insyaAllah. Let's just take a deep breathe and let it go, let them all go.

Assalamualaikum.