If only forgetting you isn't hard, but from what i see i should. I can't bear all this pain, i'm tired. Everything keeps falling down each day, my life apparently is. Your happy and its good that your happy that's what i want although i know i'm not the reason why. I will stop trying, i will start moving on. But i won't forget you, your still my friend.
It's hard for me to go through everything i have my own problems and its apparently letting me down most of the time, with this plus my problems i can't tell what's happening to me but all i can say, crying is the only way i'm letting out the pain i keep inside. But it isn't enough for me to forget what has happened throughout the year. Why him? Why. Its just that i knew this would happened why did i keep trying, why did i even keep trying.
He's great, yeah but i will try to put a distance myself from you cause i know i can't have you and maybe that way it can make my feelings for you go away if that's what you wanted i will do it for my own best. Somehow i feel i was never enough for everyone; not enough for my parents, my family, my friends and not enough to make me happy. Why can't i make myself happy and not hurting myself even more each day.
If your reading this, its not your fault its mine expecting and hoping too much on you. I keep telling myself that maybe he would feel the same too but i was just expecting too much. Well like what they say "high expectations only lead to great disappointments" that's what i did and it was a mistake i'm not saying i regret falling for you its great having feelings for you but you don't even feel the same way. I made my own scar, my own pain. I'm sorry for my friends who said to me "maybe there's a chance, you won't know. don't lose hope" but its killing me, i'm sorry but i should really just move on. I will try.
Assalamualaikum.
It's hard for me to go through everything i have my own problems and its apparently letting me down most of the time, with this plus my problems i can't tell what's happening to me but all i can say, crying is the only way i'm letting out the pain i keep inside. But it isn't enough for me to forget what has happened throughout the year. Why him? Why. Its just that i knew this would happened why did i keep trying, why did i even keep trying.
He's great, yeah but i will try to put a distance myself from you cause i know i can't have you and maybe that way it can make my feelings for you go away if that's what you wanted i will do it for my own best. Somehow i feel i was never enough for everyone; not enough for my parents, my family, my friends and not enough to make me happy. Why can't i make myself happy and not hurting myself even more each day.
If your reading this, its not your fault its mine expecting and hoping too much on you. I keep telling myself that maybe he would feel the same too but i was just expecting too much. Well like what they say "high expectations only lead to great disappointments" that's what i did and it was a mistake i'm not saying i regret falling for you its great having feelings for you but you don't even feel the same way. I made my own scar, my own pain. I'm sorry for my friends who said to me "maybe there's a chance, you won't know. don't lose hope" but its killing me, i'm sorry but i should really just move on. I will try.
Assalamualaikum.
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