Guilty Pleasure

"Every time I close my eyes it's like a dark paradise"

Assalamualaikum, i love this month i mean i've been having such a blast. I think july is the most lovely that i've ever felt in this year. Well i didn't cried all i did was laughing, giggling and doing something that will last in my memory. I'm pretty sure that moving on is sort of making me happy and i'm accepting the fact that you don't have to be sad just because that someone can't see how much you love them.

Yes it took months, but i did it. Alhamdulillah, happiness is finally coming everyday, every second i don't know what to say. Words can't describe how happy i am now. I thank Allah all the way for giving me such a great day, month. I hope it last until the end of the year or forever. Yes i have problems but it does not keep bothering me or haunting me, it sort of reminds me when i gaze or i kinda think of it.

Sometimes, i think what makes me stayed this long to wait for him, what makes me still love him. I think that a lot lately, maybe its the process of moving on probably haha. Kakak ida has always been there for me through ups and downs. She's the one who i tell about my problems and i sort of feel much more better when i had that pep talk with her. I'm pretty much that i am happy, yes i can be sad sometimes but not that girl that i used to be.

I'm trying to change into something better and something that might help me to discover something new about my life. I need to find what am i good at or what am i not good at. Pretty say i just want to live my life for once haha. Hey, its not to late to discover something new. Your never too old to have an adventure been thinking of where am i going to travel when i grow up. And i picked Italy well actually i watched love, nora and i really don't know what that place she went so yeah that's the place i wanted to go hehe.

Let's just say i want to travel the whole world haha, with the someone i love and be happy together. I plan for many things in the future at this age. I think to much over this hahaha. But i planned that i want to have this beach house and live with 2 adorable cats and have this amazing view of the sea and just live far away from town. Yes um i think i might stay in another country insyaAllah. If my family approves me for me living in another country, but if they don't allow me i might somewhere.

Hahahah i'm pretty sure that i'm happy with my life right now and i'm happy for everyone, i'm happy for the guy i used to liked and  i'm just happy no words can describe but i think happy will haha. Farewell then.

"A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step"
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