Your Existent

"This is what you want, i finally moved on. I finally moved on"

Assalamualaikum, its been awhile isn't it? Hahaha, well i'm kinda happy lately i mean i'm really changed. The happy me is finally back, alhamdulillah. I never stopped praying for this feeling to go and it did. I don't want to wait no more. Although there's a bit of love from me to you but i'm forcing myself not to like you no more.

That's what he wants, so yeah i did moved on. Well it took 1 year to moved on but i don't care. My friends keep saying "It's 1 year, are you gonna stop after 1 year?" well if i still love him, does he even love me. Well i know 1 year is a long time but i manage to keep myself wide open to face the fact that what you want it's not always what you get. I am thankful that i've finally moved on, at least i can be happy.

Do i still love him? well i do but not that much, just as a friend and i hope this feeling will last forever. I waited and waited and finally my hard work payed off. Thank god, hahaha. Am i in love with someone else? no. I'm getting tired with all these crying every night and i'm happy.

Remember when i said happiness will never come to me, and sadness will always approach me? Well the past is not haunting me anymore, i barely smile everyday i laugh everyday and i'm really happy what had become and what effect me. But for some reasons i'm not saying i'm 100% moved on, its only about 87% probably? I still think of him. But i do not miss him like i always did before.

But i'm not gonna lie, i sometimes miss when i still love him. That beautiful feeling haha. I only want him to be happy and i hope he is. Happy with he's life. Enough is enough he is just a crush. Hm, but the important thing i finally moved on after all these ups and downs. Alhamdulillah. 

"You’re in love. That’s the way it should be because I want you to be happy"

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