Maybe We're Torn Apart

"You are the earth beneath my feet, you are my gravity"

Assalamualaikum and hi there. Its been awhile since i last update this dusty old blog. Hehehe. Its because i have nothing to post about and idk what to post about. But this time i'm really am gonna post one. Lol okay, this month is pretty hard but it's just the beginning, let's wait till the end of the month? year? Maybe.

So my friend Rasyidah is also moving away she's going Kedah. Her dad got a job there so they're gonna move there. Hanis is also moving away. People i love the most is literally moving away. I never want this to happen, but Allah has He's own way. Maybe we're gonna have a long distance friendship. I hope it last long and i love these both pretty girls they're my source of happiness. And i would die for them.

Rasyidah is always the one making me laugh, happy and i always kinda play with her tudung and her neck because it will tickles her and also her tummy. I love her so much. And Hanis, i will always hold your hands, and talk about my crush, always be there for me never fails to make me smile/laugh/happy. But it saddens me knowing that them are leaving me. We're not torn apart, i am. Torn into pieces i'm broken.

People might say, hey i like the new syafiqah. But the 'new syafiqah' is killing me. I'm the quite one, i'm the pretending that i'm happy with my friends. And i'm worried am i gonna be like this forever. Seeing everything around me, their action. Their impact. But i feel nothing. It's sort of saying i have no emotion anymore. Sometimes i wonder, am i happy or sad. I can't describe how am i feeling right now.

Meeting him has really changed my life. You can see the huge difference between the old me and the new me. I'm not blaming him for the 9484759 times. Why would i, he haven't done anything wrong. It's been a huge impact for me. Meeting him was a pleasure but i didn't know that this could happened to me. But that thing that happened to me make who i am today. And i'm thankful what did i became today. But it saddens me that i turn into a very quite potato.

So i guess that's all for today. Enough bragging. I'm tired of everything. Can i just sleep forever and just stay in my dreams and never woke up. Hm i wish. Anyways Assalamualaikum.

"I miss my smiles more than I miss yours"

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