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Assalamualaikum and hello there so today i'll post something and i'll never gonna regret it cause i know it's the best for me. It starts with Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Um, i am sorry that i fell in love with you, at first i didn't knew who do you belong with i am sorry cause by liking you, you think this is kinda embarrassed you a lot with your friends. At first i didn't know anything yet, but my friend told me about it and i don't know what to say i am just so sorry that i like/love you i know i'm nothing and i'm not craving for sympathy at all, no i do not want that. Well i know i'm just a little girl well i'm young i know nothing about it, falling in love does hurts when everything goes wrong. I didn't want you to know it and let our friendship last but something happened and it just happened. I couldn't do anything.

And yes, i still love you how can i forget you. Imagine myself like this i'm hurting myself i'm not putting this on you it's not your fault but it's mine by falling for you. At first i thought it's just a feeling maybe it will go away but i can't it keeps going back. I don't know why i pray so that i have no feelings towards you. I don't want because of me everything is ruin and i'm simply say i'm kinda a relationship ruiner, yes i tried hard i must move on. Being like this hurts my love is too fragile. But that does not stops us being friends right? I'm not forcing you but if you still want it's okay. I sometimes wonder why some of those of your friends added me now i know why but it's okay they needed the truth i don't blame them. It's not they're fault at all. In this chapter there's no one should be blamed, i started this and i must end this well it's sound like war but it's not.

Feeling this is great but sometimes it does hurts, mostly i say i am so sorry i know i'm nothing, a kid, a friend and not a close one. Maybe someday i'll find the right guy for me and i believe i will insyaAllah. I've been praying so that it would just stop. I would like to take a vacation and just let my feelings out at the beauty of the nature. But it's not a goodbye though i'm just saying this so that you know that i'm trying to move on. I hope we can still be friends. Sometimes when i posts on twitter that doesn't mean i hate you or anything, i love you it's just that i'm to tired of all of these i would say i would like to talk to you and tell you everything that would be great, yeah i was hoping that could happened i just want to tell you, but i will never happened. This blog help me a lot through happiness, sadness, pain, joy and everything it's like my bestfriend. I needed someone to let to hear my thoughts. And that someone is my blog.

I am so sorry i am it's just that maybe i've been a nuisance in your life and a terrible friend. Yeah, i was hoping to much. I like to see you happy with someone you love and you will. I am happy, happy as in being with love ones they really care about me. But i never told them anything about it. I hope your happy in your life goodluck for everything and i hope you'll read this. I really hope so and lastly i am so sorry i am really really sorry. And lastly, I love you :)





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