Pain

 

Hey peeps so today i went to Carnival at saas, my sis ask me do you want to go so i was like hell yeah! things got better when we came and she met Lisa, Nazihah and all her friends.So i "lepak" with them.My sis wants to go Mcd Saujana Impian so while waiting for my dad to come i saw Zul and Aliff he called my name and i was like waving him with a smile.I was happy and excited so i thought today was the best day ever after that moment ended just now i IM him and said Hi.

Things got better and i asked him'mcm mana sekolah okay?" and he said "bole lah , ade awek baru" and read it i cried badly.I felt like someone shoot me at my heart it was hurtful.I do love him but he got a girlfriend now i don't deserve him it hurts like badly.That moment ended and he asked"kau takder pakwe ke" i was like "takde" i was crying.Maybe i was ment to be alone in my life i'm not retarded or something but every men that i fell in love with they might just broke my heart just like this.

It's useless in love with someone.Guys i'm not craving for sympathy or something i'm just telling you guys how i felt and the pain i came through in my life.But i know i don't deserve him and who wants me anyway i'm just Syafiqah.But he never ignored me cause maybe he knew that i loved.Anyway guys that's all for today kbye. .


                                         

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