Let It Burn

 

Hey peeps it's been a long time i didn't update my blog because i was busy finishing my Geografi folio. I felt nothing was gonna happened to me but everything kept coming back to me i really don't know what to do anymore i'm tired of my life and it's hard to be thirteen i just like to go back and enjoy my life with love ones but now it's too late for me to do that but someone broke my heart it hurts me so much to see your crush but not saying anything to him or her.

I felt like a bullet just come through me i felt it's hard for me to say anything to him and seeing him with someone else does make me mad but why am i so stupid why can't i just face the truth and just move on , i'm trying but the more i try the more i kept remembering him but why am i facing this things, Allah please help me! Baby wants me to got to the Hari Karnival at Saas but i was afraid cause he goes there and if i met him , I just want to comfront him but i was to afraid to do that.I wish he would talk to me, he did such amazing things to make me smile but this time my smile faded away just like that cause the light of my heart is gone. 

I'm tired and restless to say anything to him cause i'm afraid he just kept ignoring me i know the past is past now is present but how can you erase your memory? i don't know what to do anymore i just want to scream and say i miss him and i love him but i'm afraid of rejection. You might say is he handsome or not for me is not the handsome part for me it is the heart he was so sincere to befriend with me i really like him alot because that i feell in love with him , but hey a girl like me doesn't deserve him although it hurts me to see him with someone else but for me if he happy i would be happy to see him like that. that's all for today anyway i hope you guys understand ;)  babai <3
                                                                                                xoxo <3

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