World We Live In







Sometimes it's hard to say "i love you" to someone you love the most.You fear that they'll reject you or something else. I have a story that broke my heart.So here it goes.

We went to the same tuition center which is pretty good.He became my best pal although he didn't know i like him a lot.One day i told my friend that i love him.While she was at school but we're not in the same school she was talking with him and other friends they're are playing congkak she talked about me to him what do i like and dislike.

When she was talking with him she accidently said that i love him.He knew it for quiet a long time but she didn't tell me about it.After months passing through i started to that he is starting to pay attention at my friend. But she didn't noticed it each and everyday he always wanna talk about my friend and everyone in school thought that they were in love with each other but they wouldn't admit it. The day changed my heart and broke into pieces was on 24th of november 2010. He buzzed me on facebook, he started to say about my friend.I ask him a question "kau suka kat sape ?" He told me it was my best friend i told him again all of my friends are my best friends and he told me you were close with them and started to said "Nadia and Aqilah ?" he said yes. I asked him again "Kau suka kat Aqilah kan ?" and then he said "Ketara sangat ke yang aku suka kat dia".

I started crying and then he ask me a question 'Syafiqah kau suka kat aku kan ?' i didn't answer it for awhile and he ask me again "Syafiqah jawab soalan aku" i was crying so badly and finally i said "Yes" he said sorry because he can't love me.I said it's okay it's not your fault.Until then i was being silent every time he im-ed me.I'm not ignoring him i just can't control my feelings it's like  someone punch my at my heart, but he did said one word that was meaningful to me he said "Kita boleh jadi kawan lagi kan ?" then i said of course we will still be friends although he doesn't know it hurts a lot.

So that was my sad life it was nothing that i would expected.Now we live in the world that nobody cares about each other anymore. 

Love, Syafiqah

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